2003-11-28 - 4:46 p.m.

I Haven't Fucked in a Week.

Y'know...I really like Evanessence. Or however you spell it. Keeper said it perfectly, "Finally, some really good "normal" music."

And she's right. Their stuff is pop, but it's good. And I just saw the video for "My Immortal" (great name) and I have more wood than a beaver right now.

Goddamn that's a seckzy video. I taped it!

I love pale skinned women with long, dark curly hair basking and caressing herself in various seckzy locations in wispy white gowns. A Maritimer thing I guess.

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2003-11-28 - 4:19 p.m.

It never ends...

And another thing. I notice that by my Time Zone IP tracker I have massive sections of the globe that The Word is not reaching. Alaska for one does not know Son Shade.

Massive sections of Central Africa are without my influence. India. Pakistan. A massive piece of Interior China. Central Australia. North Central Russia.

Wait a sec�I see a pattern developing here. Centrals HATE ME! My OWN unerring self centeredness is intimidating. BUT I WILL NOT RELENT!

I don�t need Kusplickastonia and Tapiocia anyhow. Fuck them in the Pacific rim.

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2003-11-28 - 4:04 p.m.

Murder. Death. Kill.

See, here�s another strange case of synchronicity. Watch 28 Days Later (yet again) and then flip to the news and hear this shit about A Fujian � Bird Fucking Flu. No vaccine is available and it�ll take at least 6 months to develop.

There�s been A Fujian outbreaks before. In the Netherlands and (surprise, surprise) Hong Kong back in �97. So they�ve known about this disease for at LEAST 5 or 6 years and they still don�t have a fucking vaccine? They know that it�s a strange fucking virus and has the word �PANDEMIC� written all over it � but you do fucking nothing? AND THE WORST FUCKING PART IS I DON�T KNOW WHO �YOU� AND �THEY� ARE!

There�s been a dozen or so Bird flu deaths in Canada, Great Britain and the US as of today�s news and they�re talkin� 9,000 to 50,000 deaths in Canada alone if this virus actually moves to outbreak before that fucking vaccine is discovered.

Of course it�s sensationalist. There�s a pandemic around every corner at the beginning of every flu season. I think it�s a marketing ploy for the vaccines. Sound crazy? I don�t think so.

But a pandemic is possible. We�ve been overdue for a fucking doozie for quite some time. So that made me imagination tingle and kick in: What if it wasn�t sensationalism? What IF it DID happen? What would that be like?

And then I went further � autopilot: What would it be like to have say, have my woman, my mother, friends all catch it � all indiscriminately and untimely. They�d be hauled off to mass quarantines (I�m imagining BIG flu outbreak) where they�d die alone and delirious.

How the fuck would a person process that shit? To have your people drop dead all around you. I�d not leave my place. I�d fucking stockpile. I�d not be the rioter because I�m going out right now and am buying Colemans, Hondas, Naptha, three crates of tuna, some dehydrated water and big booty porn, etc.

This is why I don�t dwell in the future. Because it is entirely possible there won�t be a nice one. And also because my imagination rabid enough to show me possibilities and they don�t always leave me pleased with myself.

Ya can�t unlearn the truth.

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2003-11-28 - 3:29 p.m.

Again With the Thinking. Oi-Vey.

One thing about 28 Days Later is it makes me wonder why they were so fucking stupid? I mean, suspension of disbelief, aside, I'd have made with a boat load of gas, generator, tools, oil, drugs, guns, gunpowder, TNT, claymores, etc. and headed straight for an island. I'da holed up for as long as possible, having picked a forested island with small game and fish.

I'da gone fucking nuts the first 12 hours without weed.

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2003-11-28 - 11:14 a.m.

Jerky and Gum...together at last.

So the coffee din't turn out, I like my coffee like my peanut butter. Smooth. Not chunky. But then I'm thinking about when we were in Northern Italy and we'd seen them drinking espresso (NOT eXpresso) with butter. I shit you not. Butter. And it was good too.

So today, having failed my coffee, I tried. Conclusion? In Padua...butter+espresso=good.

In Vancouver....not so much.

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2003-11-28 - 11:06 a.m.

Culture Jam This.

Buy Nothing Day, indeed. And here I am a veritable Culture Jammer with no fucking groceries. NO CREAM FOR MY COFFEE! No cream...fuck, I'm filtering it through a pair of fucking nylons and I'm worried about cream.

Howzabout this: New Earth Tone Fall Blend from Starbucks. Ask for it cold with powdered milk substitute!

Fuck I'm a tool. Oh, well...I'm sure there's some fish in the freezer. Salmon is good for breakfast, right?

CNN is running Adbusters' Greedy Pig spot today, keep an eye out.

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